Sustained comfort leads to stasis, which is crippling. When the work I do and the life I live is static, I don’t explore new things. I don’t take chances. I don’t venture from what I already know.
But often, what is known isn’t the best for the task at hand. To truly find the best, I need to explore the unfamiliar. I need to enter regions and thoughts that I haven’t dared venture in before. I need to have a willingness to put myself in uncomfortable positions. I need to let myself be in situations where I don’t know what’s going to happen.
I think the main reason I agonized so much over quitting my job was because it was comfortable. I knew the job, I knew the people, and I knew I was due a paycheck every month. Why give up something that’s so familiar and safe? That I did leave is a huge deal for me because, for better or worse, I’ve always had a tendency to be safe than to take a risk. But the fact of the matter is I felt this was the right time to go because, amongst other reasons, I was simply burnt out. After 11 years, the job wasn’t making me happy any longer.
Being unemployed and not being a FUSD employee is definitely uncomfortable; it’s something that’s going to take some time for me to process. But even in these first few days of being officially gone, good things are starting to happen for me. I still don’t know what the future holds for me long-term, but I’m liking how it looks so far. I think I’ll be all right.